Ramshackle Rush To The End

Saw something funny on Facebook today. F.I.N.A.L.S: Fuck I Never Actually Learned Shit

I think that sums up my situation the best right now. The mad dash always gets the work done though. I look forward to the midweek--to enjoying that first night in bed when I don't have to wake up and go right back into stress mode. It will be a sweet evening but stress mode will only be slightly more delayed.

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On another note. Sucks to lose to people who just aren't as deserving as yourself and the ones you ally yourself with.

-- Stressin Like Its Goin Out of Fashion

One In A Million, Against a Thousand

Back at it again. I guess I kind of like writing on here. Anyway, I can't believe its time to roll the dice. Looking to branch out into the world and see what it yields digitally. I wanted to write how my actions feel like the anthesis of myself but thats awfully pretentious. Thats besides the point though. I feel stressed and frustrated and wish I could find my release. I think I just prevent myself from getting on top of things because if I did I would be forced to realize just how far behind I actually am on everything. Shit not going to get into this right now. No need to bring myself down.

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Nothing else coming to mind. I have the desire to type and expres but its negative and I don't need to recap that here. Fuckin' depressing.


-I've had it with these monkey fighting snakes on this Monday to Friday plane.

A Little Twitter Told Me

"Well what the fuck" I thought on this evening as the TV played on the background. Another night at home disappointed in what my evening turned out to be. Its a movie I've seen a few times. Funny enough but wouldn't I be happier watching something like the Matrix? Probably.

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Are we all doomed to be stuck in an infinite cycle of feeling beholden to others? I feel like we are as everyone is just so self-serving. I mean, I know I am but I dont screw people over or do some of the stupid shit that others do to just make it obvious that we don't care. Sometimes, I do zone out and just kind of nod along but everyone else does as well. I get tired of being the one that asks everyone to repeat what they said when I talk it just gets ignored. Its all contradictions. It's all sideways and turtles all the way down.

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I pray for Sunday every weekend. I love watching football but I should always be doing homework. Its a habit I guess. But right now, I just need to kill a bit more time so I can make my way to my room and watch what I want to before I go to bed. Wish there was more Walking Dead but what're you going to do

12/2/2011 Another First Day

Honestly didn't think I'd get back to writing on here. Either today or tomorrow or any other day. I hope that I continue.

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I guess I have a low tolerance for social interaction. By that I don't mean that I particularly don't like social interaction (though I'd be lying if this wasn't at least part of my explanation) but rather I just don't need to see a lot of people on a daily basis. I put myself down a lot I guess and so it just makes it easier to be around people that I know won't question me too much.

Why wouldn't I go out to the bar tonight with my roommate? What do I really have to be afraid of? The odd looks I feel that people give me? Being exposed as what I think that I am? Its going on about a month, maybe a bit longer since I've had any sort of major social interaction.

I think I'm just happier doing what I want to do rather than being stuck with what everyone else wants to do. If I'm not having fun whats the point really? Its not like these are the only years I'll be able to hang out with people and do stuff. I have so much of my life in front of me and it will undoubtedly be filled with better social interactions.

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Unreal that FX just has the Waterboy playing on twice in a row.

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I guess thats all for today. Maybe tomorrow I'll try some short creative writing thing...instead of doing finals work

First Post

Every blog starts with a generic first post. This is my first post. I'm not sure what I'm going to put here but I hope to write about something or try to write something original or even just what's running through my head right now.

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I think I'll start writing tomorrow. This really isn't as easy as I thought it would.
Right, Simple, Rustic